No Man is an Island

To continue the thoughts of yesterday.

We have to move through this life remembering that action and consequence are two sides of the same ball.

And we have to remember that our actions and the consequences of those actions always affect the lives of those who love us.

If I move away, it takes something away from the lives of those who love me.

If I hurt, those who love me hurt.

If I have joy in my life, that happiness infects the lives of those who love me.

If I have great success in my life, it gives a sense of well-being and pride to the lives of those who love me.

Our lives are intermingled.

We can add zest and spice to the lives of those who love us.

We can add strength.

We can add love.

So truly no man is an island.

Our lives are edged with the lives of others. They are our borders.

Together we are made stronger.

Together we can weather the storms.

To change or not to change...

It is that age old question of to change or not to change... well; at least it is a variation of the age old question anyway.

I have a job. I am a teacher. I gripe about it everyday, but really it is a perfectly good job. The thing is that this other job that I thought I wanted has now become available. So I am faced with the dilemma of… do I go for it or sit tight where I am.

Don't tell me to make the pros and con list. I did that mentally a week ago. And yet, I still can't make the decision. Last week I decided to stay put. This week... I am thinking about going for it.

It would involve a move. But only about two hours away from home. I even have somewhere to live if I get the job. And yet… indecision persists.

Pros –
It is a job I have been hoping
It would be a better work environment, smaller classes, less students
It pays more than my current job
It has benefits; it is a social security paying school
Living in my lake house

Cons –
Leaving my home to live in the lake house ( yeah, that is a pro and a con)
Not being close to doctors, dentist etc
Losing my seniority on the job
Losing my job security by being on a probationary contract for two years
Uprooting my dogs to a house without a pet door and fenced in yard
And the worst thing - leaving my elderly parents behind, and being two hours away from them.
Not being to drive 5 minutes to pop-in and see my parents on a daily basis.
Not being available in the middle of the night to help my mom if my dad needs to go to the hospital.
Not being close enough to the hospital to go visit them everyday after work.
Not being available to the ones I love most in the world.


Well, I guess it is settled because now that I look at the list all of the things on the PROS list are really selfish things. And the things on the CONS list are the things that matter most… my family.

So I will not change. Change is not always good.

cars

Ok, so today I am all about cars...

Have you ever passed up the deal of a lifetime and then a few weeks later your car (which you decided you liked too much to get rid of) leaves you on the side of the road, a long way from home? Yeah, so that is exactly what happened to me.

My friend decided to buy a Navigator and wanted to sell her 2 year old car at half price. It had low milage and was in mint condition, not even a footprint on the carpet. I thought about it, and then decided I liked my car too much to part with it.

I took off on a road trip, enjoyed a lovely 4 day vacation, but when I left town to head home, I left without my car. (Thank goodness there was a car rental open on Sunday)

So, now, they have called me to come and get it. I don't want to go. I am like the betrayed girlfriend... I don't ever want to see that loser again.